Song for the day

No one can deny that Beatls has the greatest music in the last 50 years. Their music is always in our lives, from young to old...

One song from Beatles triggered my fear tonight.. It has been in my head for awhile.. I am afriad of being left alone...

"I'll Follow the Sun"
One day you'll look to see i've gone.
For tomorrow may rain, so i'll follow the sun.
Some day you'll know i was the one.
But tomorrow may rain, so i'll follow the sun.
And now the time has come
And so my love i must go.
And though i lose a friend,
In the end you'll know, oooh.
One day you'll find that i have gone.
For tomorrow may rain, so i'll follow the sun.
Yes, tomorrow may rain, so i'll follow the sun.
And now the time has come
And so my love i must go.
And though i lose a friend,
In the end you'll know, oooh.
One day you'll find that i have gone.
For tomorrow may rain, so i'll follow the sun.

Ocean

Ocean is beautiful today.. One of the good thing about living in this little beach town is I get to see Pacific whenever if I want to. The water was shiny beneath the sun. It looked peaceful.. I started wondering what's under the sea, how the deepest point looks like and who dumped that much salty water there? The idea of the all the unknowns amazed me... Well, I could have googled the answers, but nah, I rather let my mind go off leash, even just for 30 seconds..

Why is it 'Merry Chirstmas"?

So the phase originally was just only meant be pleasing and delightful, no bubbling over with holiday spirits added... With all the add-ups later on, I think John Lennon's "Happy Chirtmas" might be closer to my ideal spirit of Christmas..

Here is what I yahooed..
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Merry_Christmas
"Merry", derived from the Old English myrige, originally meant merely "pleasant, and agreeable" rather than joyous or jolly (as in the phrase "merry month of May").[2]

Though Christmas has been celebrated since the 4th century AD, the first known usage of any Christmastime greeting, dates back to 1565, when it appeared in The Hereford Municipal Manuscript: "And thus I comytt you to God, who send you a mery Christmas".[2] "Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year" (thus incorporating two greetings) was in an informal letter written by an English admiral in 1699. The same phrase is contained in the secular English carol "We Wish You a Merry Christmas", and the first Christmas card, produced in England in 1843.

Also in 1843, Charles Dickens' A Christmas Carol was published, during the mid Victorian revival of the holiday. The word Merry was then beginning to take on its current meaning of "jovial, cheerful, jolly and outgoing".[2] "Merry Christmas" in this new context figured prominently in A Christmas Carol. The cynical Ebenezer Scrooge rudely deflects the friendly greeting: "If I could work my will.. every idiot who goes about with 'Merry Christmas' on his lips should be boiled with his own pudding".[3] After the visit from the Ghosts of Christmas affect his transformation, Scrooge exclaims; "I am as merry as a school-boy. A merry Christmas to everybody!", and heartily exchanges the wish to all he meets.[4] The instant popularity of A Christmas Carol, the Victorian era Christmas traditions it typifies, and the term's new meaning appearing in the book, Dickens' tale popularized the phrase "Merry Christmas

http://www.phrases.org.uk/bulletin_board/2/messages/243.html
"Morris Dictionary of Word and Phrase Origins" by William and Mary Morris (HarperCollins, second edition, 1977) "Merrie England. England of the Anglo-Saxon period and the Middle Ages was not a very happy place to be, let alone 'merrie.' So why this phrase indicating revelry and joyous spirits, as if England were one perpetual Christmastime? The answer is that the word 'merrie' originally meant merely 'pleasing and delightful,' not bubbling over with festive spirits, as it does today. The same earlier meaning is found in the famous expression, 'the merry month of May.'"

Happy Index

Yahoo came out a new list of happy states.. This year, the survey added up one more question "How satisfy you are with your life?" I think Minnesotan might not have a good score on that question. It dropped from #1 to #26, Louisiana is a surprised #1. Other two beach states, Hawaii and Florida are #2&3.... sadly, Cali is only #46. I think people are more stressed in Cali.. Beach is here, sunshine is here, but not too many people know how to relax.. Instead, heavy traffic, unaffordable housing and material driven usually drive people nuts....

So today, I am going to sit at back yard, and do nothing.. maybe I can give a higher score if you ask me how satisfy I am with my life... One thing learned from this survey, my happiness counts only if I say so..

Christmas

Love is love.. find it, have it, keep it and give it back... that's the Christmas spirit... And Christmas is not that commercial at all if you see things from the other side..

So be happy Charlie Brown... bottom line, Christmas is all about a new-born baby, a big old guy wearing red with smile on him always, a reindeer named Rudolph with a red nose, some hot coco, love and be merry.

I sounded like Linus, I know.. once awhile Lucy needs to listen to her younger brother.

恐懼

最近常常有些念頭鑽進腦袋裡... 死亡是其中之一...

陽明山上靜靜躺著的有我親愛的娘娘(外婆),阿爹(外公),阿婆,爺爺,奶奶,還有小狗球球... 清明或是忌日,老爸老媽總是默默的風雨無阻的上山掃墓, 我也總是跟著... 現在人在異鄉, 經常的腦海裡會反覆想著上山的路, 寧靜的墓地, 清清涼涼的陽明山上的空氣... 不害怕, 因為他們是我親愛的親人.. 但害怕的是, 等我也年華老去, 還有誰會記得愛我的他們... 等我有一天也靜靜的躺在墓地裡, 我的孩子會不會哀傷的來拜訪我..

死亡本身不值得恐懼的, 人嘛,總有走到頭的一天.. 可能會很痛, 可能什麼也記不得, 不過就是最後眼睛一閉, 身體不再是身體, 靈魂也不再是靈魂... 可怕的是, 死亡帶給愛的或是被愛的人的後遺症... 我試想著有一日失去父母的感覺, 恐懼... 我試想著有一日失去子女的感覺, 恐懼... 我試想著有一日失去所愛的人的感覺, 恐懼... 我試想著有一日失去朋友的感覺, 恐懼... 我試想著人們失去親人的哀傷, 送白髮人, 送黑髮人.. 我不能想像那有多深... 我的父母失去了他們的父母, 他們永遠也不能從失去的哀傷中復原, 我恐懼於想像失去我的... 更甚之, 有一日我的死亡, 會讓多少愛我的人憂傷..

Jill's Bucket List 2010

I took the LV purse out from my 2008 list. It's not like I own it already. It's just not my thing to have.. I am working on getting my scrapbooking room setup. Hopefully I will get this one cross out next year. And let's hope I am still alive next year to update this. :)

Cruise Mediterranean
A lake cabin
Trip to Europe (all over Europe I mean)
Trip to M.I. Hammel's factory in German
Trip to Egypt
Trip to South America, including Rio and Angel's fall
Own a Tiffany diamond necklace
Camp in Yosemite
Camp in Grand Canyon
Enjoy hot spring and drink soke in Japan in the middle of the night, in fall..
Scrapbook/habit room for me only (and have time to use it)
A Mac computer for scrapbook room
Be a better photographer
Ice skating at Rockefeller Center
Own a classic jukeboxe
Own a coffee shop

Heart

I am sitting in my cafe, wondering besides being blue, what else can i do? I know I can't relive some part of my life.. but I wish I could, so I could be happy and carefree again....

ahh.. the beauty of life.... there is no redo button..

Guests

12/10/09 Sunny, 60F

Both of my #1s are in my blue cafe, thanks to the car issue and girl problem... Car problem sucks, and girl problem is worse... I might need to add some hard liquor to their coffee... well, hmm.. never saw T drinking coffee before.. maybe just shots then... Those two turn to be happier after getting some buzz..

Went to Walmart print out our xmas pictures... All I can say is I miss Target! Well, I understand the need of having a Walmart, cuz they are everywhere.... But I don't understand.. Don't all the trendy OC peeps (supposely) need a trendy store like Target here, too?

想念

12/9/2009 天氣晴, 54F,　

加州的陽光很忠實的出來報到, 不過很冷... 從前在明州零下n度都不當回事, 現在低於60度以下就拼命叫冷... 有點被加州的好天氣寵壞了... 要嘛就是我的皮變薄了或油變少了?! ㄏㄏㄏ... 看看聖地牙哥zoo裡的北極熊就知道了, 那幾隻熊長的一點都不北極... 唉, 我很快也會長的不很明州了, 想想有點sad,　好像失去了些什麼...　就像現在我覺得自己一點都不台灣一樣,　看新聞說中文,　可是不一樣就是不一樣了...　

還是很想念明尼蘇達的, 雖然已經搬走一年多了耶.... 說我念舊也可以, 死鴨子嘴硬也可以, 想就是想... 想當初是被強迫打包的, 為了跟好長期飯票只好走人的... ㄝ, 犧牲很大耶.... 原來安安穩穩的住著, 工作也在那, 朋友也一堆, Twin Cities 又是票選最快樂, 最健康, 最聰明的城市.... 那個要搬家的長期飯票真不知道在想什麼... 雖然還是得承認加州的天氣真的很好, 小孩玩的地方也多, 可是我自言自語的時間(像現在)還有自己到處晃蕩的時間多太多了....　有點像回到小時候暑假一個人在家躲在老媽房間玩的時候.... 算了,　一個人也習慣了,　既然同意被強迫就得認了 (聽起來有點曖昧)...　等下一個人shopping去,　多找一點理由喜歡加州..

Farmville 問我要不要把背景改成白雪皚皚的冬天... 抬頭看看窗外, 想想還是算了, 不用再灑鹽巴了... 說老實話, 不是很想念在雪地裡戰戰兢兢開車的感覺, 還有融雪的時候到處都是泥巴的髒像...

好啦.. 阿Q回來了... 心情要好一點了吧!

　

Winter Wonderland

Xmas songs are always my favorite... Actually, the whole package of xmas is! I just love December.. Driving in the car, listening to non-stop xmas music..

Heard this one today, while driving on hwy 5 in Sunny California.. Where is the winter wonderland, quiet night with white snow covering? I start missing my little snowy state... well, like I do always...

Sleigh bells ring, are you listening,
In the lane, snow is glistening
A beautiful sight,
We're happy tonight.
Walking in a winter wonderland.

Gone away is the bluebird,
Here to stay is a new bird
He sings a love song,
As we go along,
Walking in a winter wonderland.

青蘋果

找到初中同學..　Ｆａｃｅｂｏｏｋ真是強大...　不過世界是真小,　同學嫁了我大學同學...

初中, 十三四歲的年紀... 再興就我們那屆出了個合唱班... 漂亮的, 聰明的, 有錢的, 會玩的通通編在一起... 我咧, 也沾了點合唱班的鋒頭, 走在路上也好像有點風了... 坐校車總是一群人霸佔著最後一排, 一路哼哼唱唱的回家... 再興最沒道理的就是髮禁.. 清湯掛面, 耳上一公分的標準在我們的叛逆的年紀是最大的權威挑戰... 偷偷剪流海, 打層次, 檢查頭髮的時候拼命的伸脖子, 拉領子.... 不過說老實話現在看看, 挑戰跟不挑戰權威其實沒差太多, 一樣難看...

做為合唱團的一員其實是一件好事... 至少從此以後去ktv唱歌不會走音... 不知愁滋味的年少, 在"遺忘", " 山在虛無飄渺間", "故鄉" 的合唱曲中, 學會了怎麼表達感情....

開張...

老爸在我大學畢業的時候很嚴肅的問我 "小怡, 妳堂堂大學商學院畢業, 有沒有想要創一番大事業的雄心? 爸願意投資... " 我亮著小星星的眼睛, 很夢幻的告訴老爸, 我要開一家咖啡屋..... 老爸二話不說, 拿起報紙告訴我, 快點去找工作....

是ㄉ.. 開一家咖啡店一直是我的夢想, 連名字都早早想好... Blue.. 有一點憂愁, 有一點 Jazz, 有一點自由, 像海, 像湖, 也像天空... 裡面要有一個牆壁的書, 火爐, 沙發, 門口要賣花, 店裡要賣咖啡杯.... 冬天加賣湯圓, 夏天賣冰淇淋... 桌子要可以玩小蜜蜂, 小精靈或轟炸機的那種遊戲桌... 旁邊還要一個有彩色氣泡的 Jukebox...

哈... 難怪老爸會用捲起來的分類廣告把我少女的美夢敲醒... 從頭到尾, 我的咖啡屋好像沒提到煮咖啡, 洗杯子跟擦地板..

我夢幻的眼睛又開始冒小星星了...

這裡, 就假裝是我那不用作苦工的小店吧... 一個可以懶懶的作作夢, 靜靜聽聽心裡的音樂, 偷偷的 be blue 的角落...

請你喝一杯咖啡吧...